I’ve always prided myself on being able to hold my booze. When younger I thought it was difficult to even tell if I’d been drinking. Last night I got drunk in the company of my girlfriend in Bali. The next day I was angry at her for getting upset at my behavior, when obviously I’d been acting perfectly normal! I accused her of gaslighting me.
Thankfully she had recorded much of the evening, on video and voice. Actually she had been very patient and kind with me. It turns out I was being a total dick.
I had a major case of the Duning Kruger effect last night – too stupid to come close to understanding how stupid I was. I was belligerent, easily offended, repetitive, and annoying.
It makes me wonder if I’m going senile. I’m sure I used to be able to function at a much higher level when drunk before.
It’s very humbling and very embarrassing. I’m nowhere anywhere near as smart as I thought I was – at least when drunk. Scary. I’m so grateful for those videos!