Reminds me of one of my intern’s girls.
Lately I’ve been coming home at all hours. My live in of 2.5 years can’t sleep when I’m out fucking my other girl, and she’s a bit of a ruin when I get back.
M can’t conceive of living without me. I’m central to her life, by plan, and I’m central to her nervous system. Also by plan.
We have an aged intimacy, yet one that is still fresh with passion.
Today to ease her insecurities, I delayed my meeting with my new 17 year old lover, took M’s dainty wrist and dragged her up the stairs to our well furnished large 2nd floor studio. Tore her clothes off, pushed her down on the bed, then just lay there looking at her. We chatted like young lovers for 45 minutes or so, laughing, being open and honest, and just appreciating each other, then I went down on her, then fucked her until she came and came and came, all the while moaning the sweetest nothings to me.
“When you first met me I never even came, until over and over you fucked me and made me into a woman. Now I come and come on you” she moaned lovingly, while her pussy contracted over and over on my cock. We make love with depth and passion. And she’s a hot little big tittied 24 year old airhead. She was on a roll coming and coming for a while, and when exhausted and happy, I got up, did a little more chi-kung, then prepared to leave to my other lover. Gave her a passionate lusty hug and kiss before going.
My N17 is totally different. We had strong sexual chemistry from the get go; she came for the first time in her life on the 2nd date, and today was squirting and squirting. We get just so fucking HAPPY when we fuck – intense ecstasy and lots of love. Very different feelings.
The intern who’s into Chi-kung says my N17 has an 8 or 9 face, and although I think that’s generous, looking at it does have about that effect when I fuck her. Like looking at this face would:
M’s face was an 8 or 9 to me when I met her 3 years ago, and she’s holding up pretty good for a 24 year old. But I love her for her tits.
I love the deep connection I get with my M, and I thrill to the intensity of sexual passion with N17.
Once upon a time I had such an intense sexual connection with a girl that I was constantly on fire with passion for her. I mean constantly. Can you imagine being so into a girl that you fuck her in the middle of the street, in broad daylight, with spectators at both ends of the street? Just around the corner from your house? We fucked for a minimum of 4 hours a day, and all day Saturday and Sunday. My spine was constantly on fire for her. For me she was a 20. Just about the hottest possible girl.
Well, I haven’t thought of Sarah for a long time now, as I’m tired of telling Grandpa stories. “I remember back in the day…” Those stories just didn’t seem relevant anymore, and who cares about Grandpa’s sexual history?
Well, my health is coming back, and now those stories are relevant again, because I’m getting those old feelings rekindled. Sexytime in every taxi ride, hard on on every escalator ride, thrill of the age difference and hot girl on my arm.
I’m at the 2nd apartment now, but as I do most nights, eventually I’ll head back to my main abode. So I fuck two girls at least once a day, sometimes 3 or 5 times. It’s like a full time job.
I like my job.
Oh ya, about the title; the reason these girls are coming is because of intense emotional connection. It’s a different flavor with each girl, but we feel SSSOOOOO fucking close when we fuck! If that’s not spiritual I don’t know what is. My favorite kind of prayer.
Damn, but life can be good.
Meanwhile the interns also have very busy social calendars, sometimes also “seeing” two girls in a day, and our social circles sometimes casually intersect, going out or hanging in together with the girls. I’d like to describe the changes that have come over us over these last few months. We all seem so much more at ease and content.
Springtime renewed in the life of this old man. Grandpa is back.
Update: I suppose in a way this post is an advertisement for the MLTR lifestyle. It requires very different tools and skills than used by PUAs. Here intense passion that you are unlikely to ever get with a one night stand girl is maintained and raised over months and years, and you get all the sex you can ever handle whenever you want. A rotating harem of 2 or 3 girls, with the occasional fuck buddy added in is plenty of variety, if you are really into the girls. But that’s really the core secret of this lifestyle; you have to really be into the girls.
Random Xpat Rantings 
Are you just a massively horny bastard, or do you find the chi-kung helps you be more virile in this regard?
I’m constantly thinking about fucking my girlfriend, and yet the flesh simply cannot keep up. With increased frequency of copulation comes increased difficulty sustaining erection, and intensely increased difficult ejaculating. It’s a pretty frustrating situation.
It’s no biggie in that I can make her come as many times as I want with my mouth or hand, but I want in on the action…
I don’t always come, for one thing. I think with M I come a few times a month. Was coming between both girls nearly once a day last week, but back down to 0 for today, after many sessions. Sex and coming aren’t the best combination, actually. Coming is what you do after sex – it’s the let down just so that you can lower your energy enough to stop fucking for a while, for instance if the girl is worn out and you haven’t a 2nd on hand. It mostly just gets in the way of MUCH more exstatic feelings than a mere orgasm.
And yes, I’m on the extreme end of the bell curve when it comes to libido. Or at least I used to be when in good health. I’m running at about 20% battery capacity, most days.
And yes, chi-kung can make a massive difference. Huge. Impossible to explain. Think light bulb before and after the application of electricity.
It seems like you’re not a fan of orgasm.
What are your thoughts on masturbation and “artificial” stimulation, ie. porn? Would ditching those help boost one’s libido?
I’m considering it because it happened more than once that I lost interest in a “real” girl because it was simply easier to jack off to teen porn. I’m not entirely sure this is healthy.
I was sort of wondering the same. Lord knows I have a lot to learn. But from an evolutionary perspective sex without orgasm doesn’t make much sense does it?
In a similar vein, what’s with what I can only describe as the revulsion one feels after orgasm. Is that nature’s way of encouraging men to “move along” or something?
Alek, about porn and masturbation, I’ve read lots of guys have learned that if they forgo it their sex lives improve. I rarely watch it myself, and prefer an active sex life to masturbation. Sometimes I’ll watch porn with a girl while fucking, but I agree with you and thousands of other men that porn and jacking off takes the edge off too much.
I prefer to fuck. With girls I’m into. The effects while fucking are of course great, and remain surrounding all other aspects of life, so for me this lifestyle is so much the obvious choice as to be pretty well choiceless. It can feel so damn incredibly good to have so much love and great sex that there is no comparable drug or any other method to feel so great.
I suspect most people don’t realize that such happiness is possible. Infatuation and sex and love are the best possible ways for relatively sustainable joy.
Violentfembot, evolution seems to have given us the option to delay or not come, so we’re working together. Eleven pregnancies so far, so this style obviously has some evolutionary advantages. Gets the girls hooked, at least.
And right – that’s important to notice; after we come our interest in the girl decreases. So better just not to come then. Because our interest in the girl increases our happiness.
When you mention happiness, do you mean on a mental level, or physical satisfaction as well? Because having sex and not coming to me feels like chewing great food and not swallowing it. How do you even know when to stop?
I admit this is completely new territory. Is there any technique, or book, or discipline you would recommend to explore this?
Unfortunately you can’t get there from here. I don’t know how to explain this without somehow coming across as a dick, because sex is an extremely touchy subject. Our ego is wrapped up in it.
But the usual way people have sex isn’t the only way. It’s not just about not coming. It’s about where and how you feel the sensations of sex. It’s possible to feel them instead of just the tip of your dick in your whole body and even inside HER body.
Sometimes people will have that start to happen to them after a spontaneous kundalini opening, but sex practices can also be learned, especially through chi-kung and daoist yogic practices.
It is a different way to BE, entirely. A dramatic shift in perspective of what it means to have a body. It’s not just a matter of not ejaculating.
When you have energetic sex, focusing on the energies, you’ll experience power and happiness and passion orders of magnitude greater than anything you ever imagined possible.
It will make a mere orgasm seem like a childs toy. Like a major let down. Like nothing.
Yesterday I was fucking N17. There is nothing too special about her, other than she is 17 and cute. She’s kind of a fucked up airhead, actually. But my heart was glowing with a fierce love, she was squirting and squirting, I felt HER sexual sensations as a cloud of energy that our bellies were sharing, we stared in each others eyes and felt a huge spark there, and faced danced against each others O faces. Not only did I feel huge love, but my body was so full of passion that I felt it as an aura that extended a few feet out from my skin. Also I’m sensitive to each chakra, and move energy between them or feel a few at the same time, while fucking. And on and on. The feeling is so good it’s impossible to put into words.
And being so close to her and appreciating her so deeply and sensitively and powerfully while feeling so much really gets the girl to open up. It’s a magic trick nobody knows about.
My lifestyle revolves around this magic trick.
Nobody even knows or understands what I do, but for me my whole life is based on it. Energetic sex is not like normal sex. You can build your entire life around it.
And nothing, nothing, no possible thing, can ever make anyone anywhere near as happy. Short or long term. It’s the most incredible drug possible.
Happiness can be a very strong emotion. Sometimes, especially at the beginning of infatuations, it can last for many months.
When the two of you glance at each other or hold each others hand you just feel so happy!
When she strokes your face all the worry lines relax, you breathe deeply, and let go into that love.
It’s meditation that requires an entire lifestyle to be able to accomodate.
This is not some hobby. This is not some addiction. This is an entire philosophy of life and way of being.
Chi-kung is basically feeling into the subtle feelings and sensations that you have in your body. With practice your brain will refine your kinesthetic mental map and map onto sensations some of your emotions. So you will feel love in a place – in your heart. Happiness too. You embody the feelings. So yes, it’s physical and mental.
With chi-kung you can direct your attention too, so you can recreate, strengthen, or broaden experiences such as love, or sexual mojo.
You can become a very strong person, in heart and sex. Strong in a way that you can’t appreciate until you feel it.
Ok, that settles it – I’m going to start studying chi-kung, or whatever entry point into this whole thing is relevant.
Reading your lengthy reply below, you’ve just made me aware that I’ve been playing with building blocks my whole life whilst there’s a PlayStation 4 hooked up to an IMAX in the next room.
Inspirational stuff as always. I don’t know of any other writer who combines meditation and game in the way you do, but it seems like the ultimate form of fulfilment.
Thanks, xsplat. There’s a lot to chew on. I read your old posts on sex chikung and kundalini and I’ll start practicing right away. I’ll also ditch porn and self-pleasuring for at least a few months.
Appreciate your posts.
Sometimes I’ll just stop when I get tired. It’s an athletic aerobic workout to be the man on the top, sometimes. But in my olympian prime I’d just fuck until the girl had had as many orgasms as she could take.
For some girls I count the number of times she comes, but others don’t really have discreet orgasms, and they can seem to come for many minutes on end in one continuous orgasm. I had one girl a few years ago who would start coming within 1 minute of entry.
It’s much more difficult to handle energy when the girl is coming, because that hooks you up to the mainline of voltage. You’ll need your heart open to handle that much power without coming.
Along the lines of using strong emotion, my live in is of course in need of re-assurance. So an hour ago before leaving the main apt I fucked her on the guest bed, with extreme lusty love, got her to say over and over in many different ways “I love you”, while saying it in unison back at her, then going off on my own variations of I love you while she came and came.
Got her to say “I love you Daddy”. “I love you X” . “Don’t ever leave me X” “I love you I love you I love you” each variation over and over while she spasmed on my dick with a huge ball of love in her cervix, looking me in the eyes.
“Do you still want to cook for me?”
“Yes”.
“Do you still want to take care of me?”
“Yes”
And on and on, reaffirming our bonds in the strongest possible way, with the strongest possible emotions.
Reaffirming the bond through physical love and deep affection. This stuff is gold.
And to think that to some something like this would be “so beta, bro.”
I’ve been trying to explain an alternate way to deal with women for a while, but it’s VERY tough to communicate this stuff.
I guess you have to be ready to hear it.
I think the reason the open expression of affection is considered beta is because it isn’t often done from a place of strength. For the average guy, they’re almost putting on an act to get the girl to like him in the first place. “If I tell her I love her, then maybe she’ll love me too.”
Once you’re no longer operating from the weaker frame, and are obviously dominant it would be callous and unhealthy to NOT show affection. I’ve found it funny how, now that I’ve worked on myself a little more, my compliments (though rare) are always accepted with joy. I can tell a girl she looks sexy without it being sleazy since it’s both sincere and not horny. The same comment would be completely “beta” if I were to have said it even a year ago.
It’s the rare man who can fully allow this level of emotion/spirituality into his game.
True. I also believe it’s the utter lack of a receptive audience that the average guy refrains from even considering a softer, more loving attitude. It’s not only the men who think it’s “beta”, but the women. The average American woman (to an extent Western woman, with the exception maybe of Central-Southern Europeans) simply doesn’t get it. She would mistake your loving, open attitude for softness and would try to demolish you with a sarcastic jab, because that’s how she has been raised to react.
Oh ya, and when you are energetically sensitive, when the woman has an orgasm you feel it.
A lot.
More than you’d feel a normal orgasm of your own, because her orgasm resonates within your entire expanded being – but you also feel it in specific physical and energetic locations.
You get a real union, on so many levels.
What could possibly be more fun?
xsplat,
may have missed it in the old posts, but in which country do you live?
I’ve been in SEA for the last dozen years and am currently in Indonesia.
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I have a question – can Tai Chi be used in the same way as Chi Kung to achieve the things you talk about? I’ve decided to start practicing mainly because of physical health benefits, but now that I’ve started reading more into it, it looks like Tai Chi can revert negative psychological imprints and of course, dramatically increase your flow of chi, leading to all kinds of good things. I also understand that Chi Kung exercises are often part of Tai Chi routines, so I was wondering if you can tell me what kind of benefits may I expect from tai chi, if you know?
To clarify my question above, my perspective is this: besides fixing my chronic health issues, I’m trying to get my sexual life in order and I think your way of doing it might be the enlightenment I was searching for the past few years. I want to get to the root of my problems (for example, inability to feel love etc.) and not to cover the issues up with game techniques or whatever the most guys do, while tricking themselves that they are “alpha bad boys” because they can bed an occasional slut.
I would appreciate any advice.
I never studied tai chi, but my weak understanding of it is that it is focused on the outward form with no focus on feeling energies.
We are a complicated network of systems that can mature and learn in many different ways. Chi-kung is one very useful avenue of exploration that can have broad reaching benefits. I’m sure you’ll also find many others that will also be applicable to your desire to feel more love and even to boost sex drive.
Hormones, weights and sports, diet and general health, chi kung, and an attractive attentive lover should work well together. Some people get into psychotherapy but I have little experience with it, and prefer body centered therapies.
Thank you for the reply. I’ve decided to try Tai Chi so I’ll see what benefits I’ll get from it – proper Tai chi includes breathing exercises so I think there is some overlap with Chi Kung. Either way, I might try both together and see where I end up. In any case, I’m very excited about it.
Since you mentioned psychotherapy – I can’t really recommend it to anyone based on my experience. I was supposed to do CBT+pills for some of my social anxiety issues. Instead, I went about it on my own, started striking conversation with strangers and women and most of my issues were resolved in couple of months. If I had listened to the shrinks I would probably be fed up with expensive pills that would screw with my brain, so no thanks…later, another psychiatrist tried to get me on antidepressants to “treat” my vestibular/neurological issues. Instead, I went to get biotherapy/energy healing treatments and in 3 months I was healed almost completely which left the docs bewildered. Modern Western medicine is mostly a fraud to sell expensive, useless drugs, in my opinion.
Excellent post. It’s also fun to move energy throughout her body. To experience her thrill of her newfound experience is very life-affirming. And to move energy throughout her body without even physically touching her… you may as well be David Copperfield. “How are you doing that!?” Great fun, and very bonding.
My neighbour used to be married to a chi-kung teacher who would make her come by touching her feet.
I once wordlessly touched the chakras on the soles of the feet and pushed energy in a circuit up the legs to the heart and back down again, then the young woman, amazed, described a strong sensation matching exactly what I was doing.
I have no mental map to accommodate such experiences. Many chi-kung related experiences are off the map.
I always thought that women operate on a non-verbal, kinestetic level and that their verbal-logical apparatus appears at times to be tacked-on. Men need to be convinced, women need to be swayed. Some form of energy “language” would fit into this model perfectly, and the more I live and experience, the more I think that all of the verbal stuff that you’re supposed to be doing is either superfluous or of minor importance if you can connect at deeper level.
I knew a guy who claimed to be able to make a woman come by stimulating a pressure point located more or less on the upper right of the right gluteal muscle. I used to think he was full of it, but I’ve seen people do some very bizarre stuff with just their presence. Their energy. So while I have to be skeptical because my experiential map cannot yet support these claims, I’m very open to experiment.
Nine years ago or so, when I lived in the Phillippines, I dated a hyper sexual micro mini super neotenous city wide queen of hotness. I would work 6 hours a day and spend much of the rest of the time meditating and doing chi-kung, out by the ocean, when not writing or fucking. At one point I stopped most work and did a 1 (or 2?) month long chi-kung retreat – just doing tantric fucking and chi kung all day.
My sexual mojo was at a lifetime peak, and we were olympians. Possibly the best on the planet at the time.
That story is now again relevent, because I’m again doing more chi-kung, and again have some decent outlet for the increase in energy. And not just the boxing bags.
There is a new addition to the crew here today, making us 4. I’ve just noticed that we are experiencing group happiness. A thing I never even knew was a thing.
Our lives are all going very well, and there is a sense of mutual celebration.
I envy you and your crew. Someday soon I hope make it to SEA myself.
No doubt, they’re usually loud as hell!
Great stuff, Mr. Xplat. I too have had similar sexperiences with chi kung (we call it qi gong or just qigong in my part of the world.)
For all the commenters looking for resources, I recommend Mantak Chia’s books on Daoist sexual practices. His qigong is really solid, simple, and fun to practice, because most people start to feel the energy moving fairly soon after starting practice. The book that got me started he co-wrote with a western sexologist, the title is “The Multi-Orgasmic Man.” It’s great stuff!
For the record, Chia doesn’t go into the heart-connection, emotional bonding that you do. This is some manosphere original stuff. It won’t work on a lot of NA women, but some, and the ones that it does work on–look out! You could have a stalker if you pumped & dumped a woman after this sort of bonding experience. It’s *definitely* MLTR stuff, not for casual sex, nor for ONS.
But I’m in love with that ho though (whoa) even though she loco